Chapter 4: George The next few days seemed to swing back and forth, sometimes pretty wildly.I had quietly thought about guys for years, but I had never really seen myself as gay, or even bi. And then that one crazy offer for an early morning backrub had upset my whole world.I clearly hadn’t known James long enough to love him, and even if I were gay, I would never have dreamed that I would be a bottom. And the quiet talk about James still seemed to vascilate from him being gay to him somehow being part of some crazy group that would try to get actively gay guys in trouble at school. Plus there was the whole Michael thing, which couldn’t help but make me wonder if I wasn’t being played, at least somehow.And in the meantime the most peaceful part of my days became the early early morning rendezvous with James in the shower, especially if it was just the two of us, or the odd daytime meeting that sometimes turned into a bit more.Michael still dropped by every once in a while, and of course I took care of him as best as I could, but it was James I was really happy to see. And even when Michael showed
