Kieran’s arm tightening, just briefly, around my shoulders – whether merely instinctive, or to keep me upright, or him, I wasn’t sure – as his other hand shifted to his crotch. Gay sex I’d sucked dick before, been fucked before even, but those had been shy, almost coy assignations. This is our stop. Not that I didn’t react as though I’d been scalded, head snapping up to stare straight ahead, as my heart hammered in my chest. “Sean,” I said, equally softly.”Sean,” he echoed, the smile clear in his tone. It was a mistake, of course it was. “Ain’t like you’re gonna get pregnant.”I blinked at him, trying to process, Knowing I should say something, should have some reaction, and yet all I could do was stare at the smirk on his thin lips and wonder what would happen – what anger, what aggression it might unlock – if I leaned in and kissed him. A smack, between my shoulder blades, in what seemed like near-desperation as I sucked on his suddenly delicate tip. He yanked me away, an arm wrapping my neck as he held me – my cheek against his groin – tightly. Part of me almost wanting to be caught, to be called out on my perversion; that way I’d be forced to
