But someday I will be ok. My marriage on the other hand…it was on its last leg and I was mainly in it for the kids until they got older. I have always know from my teen years that I was attracted to other guys along with girls. Gay sex So that brings me to last summer and to now. And keep on coming. Finally about 6 years ago I decided it was time to explore and see for fact if I indeed would enjoy the company of another man and set out to have the experience that I apparently craved so much. I was on a work trip for a few days. I knew that this thing we had wasn’t going to last but for some strange reason in my head I thought it would. I could not put my finger on it but I knew something was different I knew that if I allowed myself I would feel things for this man that I had never felt for another man in my life.
