. Gay porn . . . they . not this shitty situation.Back in the hall, Tony is turned towards me now. I look at him, and sure enough, black gothic letters tattoo says T O N Y in sort of an arch above his bellybutton. Below it, in smaller letters and straight, not arched, right above his cock, D i F I L I P P O.“So – your name across your stomach. The boss made you get that?”“I’m honored, Charlie. Shows I’m his boy. You’ll see. You’ll love havin’ yours, too.”“No fuckin’ way!”The other two big ugly thugs are in the gym working out. (What I am I thinking? I look like them now!) “O.K. This is Jimmy and Sammy.” They both reach out to shake my hand . together. I see myself in the group in the mirrors. I don’t want to admit it to myself, but they are making me hard. Damn. This can’t be happening. I’m straight.To Be Continued . . now it’s like pictures of Neanderthals that I’ve seen. My forehead’s all narrow. My eyes are sunk deep below it. My eyebrows are thick and meet above my nose – my nose with the ring hangin’ outta it. My jaw is pushed way forward. My beard used to grow
