And a small part of me, the foolish, hopeful part, still clings to the possibility that I can fix this somehow and go back to how things were our first week together.In the mess hall, I find Ander, Brady, and Amir waiting for me at our usual table. “But I think they are, and I don’t know what to do.”The weight in my chest shifts, not disappearing, but changing. Gay sex How is he talking to his parents going to help here? Then it hits me, last night with August. He grabs the edge of my scout shirt and wipes me clean, his gaze never leaving mine.He chuckles softly, breaking the quiet. The morning air is crisp and clean, a contrast to the stale, guilt-ridden atmosphere I’m carrying inside me. “Are you still not out?”“Only out to a small number of friends, not even Evan. A shiver runs through me when he pulls me closer, guiding my head back to his foot. “I want to understand.”I hesitate again, unsure if I’m ready to open up about my feelings for Evan, especially in front of August. Everyone liked him”.He looks out further, almost in a daze. I can’t tell. “We were buddies right away.
