However, I do think of him very often. I ended up enjoying it, but beyond that, I started to have feelings for him, and more critically, I ended up opening up to him and telling him how I was feeling.Something comes to my mind… I remember, right before the last time we fucked, I was able to delete the picture that he had of me; he had no leverage from now on; I could move on as if nothing had happened and forget about this whole ordeal… Although I truly have mixed feelings, I am genuinely attracted to him.I move on and carry on with my day; I take precautions and go to a hotel, where I shower and ensure there’s no evidence of what just transpired. Gay sex I felt heartbroken and humiliated.It is very early in the morning the sun is starting to come up… I get in my car, and I realize the events of the last few hours… I am a different person now. Somehow, my spirit is broken; I am humiliated, degraded, abused, and brainwashed, and still, I have feelings for him.I take inventory of what happened: a man, a stranger to be precise, had blackmailed me to have unprotected sex with him several times.
