Not alone at least.” I added, placing my smaller hand over his, “I’m okay now– so you have to be too.” I begged for it, needed it– needed him. “I don’t know if I can deal with something like that again.”I shook my head, “You don’t have to. Gay sex I had to get away, I had to run back to my sweet piece of heaven. He hasn’t left my side, he hasn’t given up on me.I threw each foot in front of the other, each step remembering more and more of what happened after that wave hit us. “Hold him down! Jumping and jumping and jumping and… screaming…My body was caving, my body was reeling– a stabbing pain that blurred the lines of this alternate reality. Everything was blurry, I couldn’t move.I screamed out, “Fucking hold him still!” My head slammed back, hitting soft sand. I remember falling to the ground, remember the blood that seeped through my fingers.And I remembered him screaming my name, remembered the scared look in his eyes when he thought he’d lost me. no, no.” I saw the emaciated proportions of their bodies, their sunken faces and hallowed bellies, their ribs that protruded from their skin. He’s been holding you ever since last night, cradling you like
