He knows he is. Gay sex No apology. Not peace. Not alarmed, exactly – but stunned. “All the years of being a secret. Grateful for Adam’s presence,” I finish for him.“Yes! When your body’s still buzzing and loose, but your heart’s caught in your throat, trying to make sense of what just happened.I pull him a little closer. “Yeah. Just looks down at me, breath shallow, lips parted. “You feel – ”“I know,” he breathes. It hits him from the front like it’s parting the clouds just for him, setting his hair aglow, kissing the sheen of sweat on his collarbone. Let it wrap around us like the thinning steam – less oppressive now, more like breath on skin.We don’t speak for a while. A courier glides past on a bicycle. “Knowing it ended up with you – it… it changes what it means. The morning sun pours through the coffee shop’s windows and hits him just right, casting his body in gold and shadows.
