Last night, in a very vivid dream, I think I said my final goodbye to my first lover. I could be mistaken, though.He has been dead for a few years, though I didn’t know that until about 6 months ago. There had been a few random times over the decades where he looked me up on social media or found my phone number or email address through an internet search, but the last contact we had was just a “hello, was thinking of you” more than 10 years ago after I had relocated across the country.I had decided to google him when I saw an online discussion asking, “Do you google your ex?” If I hadn’t seen that, I have no doubt that I would have remained ignorant of what happened to him. I saw that he died in May, 2020. The brief online obituary that was the first hit through the search engine did not give a cause of death, though it mentioned he was cremated.
